I should be waking up in three and a half hours... Mom and I are going to see Kelley and then drive down to LA. Thank God:) I feel like such a slacker lately, but I'm also trying not to be so hard on myself about this job thing. This trip will be a good chance to just get out of the mundane, everyday crap and hopefully think about things from a ( Read more... )

Well, I graduated a couple of weeks ago. That was an interesting day... a large part of my family attended the ceremony and even more came to the party afterward, including my Uncle Fran and Aunt Mary. I've seen them three times this year and every time they have succeded in making me cry. He's always had the idea that I would be a writer. In ( Read more... )

Today has been the most crap day I've had in awhile. I can't shake these feelings of loneliness and alienation and anxiety... Graduation is almost a month to the day and I'm a little freaked out. I bought my cap and gown. Scary shit... My car was smoking and leaking radiator fluid as I arrived to work and I've generally felt like crying all day ( Read more... )

I had a beautiful dream last night... I haven't in so long. There was a definite story and very palpable feelings of being loved and loving, but of course i can't remember anything specific. Except everything was cast in an overall blue hue (some green and white). Nothing else ( Read more... )

So, this is where I am. I'm about to graduate from college with an English Literature degree... four more credit hours until I am out from under the protective wings of education. I'm beginning to look for my career and it hasn't been successful so far... Part of the problem is I don't know what I'm qualified to do and the two ideas that come to ( Read more... )

It's been a very long time since I've written here... so much has happened in the last couple of months, things that I've wanted to record for a long time, but haven't gotten around to. I figured I'd break them up into parts ( Read more... )

I had two papers (one 9 pages, the other a combination of 15 pages of journal entries and 20 solid pages of creative writing), my final photography project due and two exams all on the 13th... the sunday before was absolutely hellacious; I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown. I hadn't put it all off... I'd actually started each during ( Read more... )